will use my fav colour to blog ......its 2008 ............still the same.......i seriously feeling very troubled. i really love him.but i guess he does not. cos he will bear to make me feel sad & upset.............he will not treat her like dat. i think i have to leave quietly and peacefully. cos no miracles will happen. he is so sure that he will not be with me. he is so confirm and certain about it. that we have no future. i am very sad ................why do i allow myself to be like this...........friends and family of mine are already very upset with me i wish i really can drink a glass of "wang qing shui" so as to forget everything. it so hard. looking at their photo they look so loving n happy. why am i being so cruel ? but why is he being so cruel to me? baobei i really love you. i know you dun.
dear frenz i know its time i should wake up but how? i know no one can help except myself. but i really dunno how to........ wo zhen de hao ai ni