THROUGH

he was sick..............i called him yesterday to check with him whether he can recommend my fren to join m1 and he sound really sick. so we chat for while.....so today i already had my mind set that i will drop by paragon to pass him some herbal tea. after lesson i went to laser my N. den from macpherson was still raining heavily so i took a cab to paragon with 5 bottles of drink den reach there $20 dollars becos of the ERP $7. OMG!!!! I went in searching ard for him but can't see him den someone say he was too sick went home already. so i was thinking should i take a cab to CCK to pass him. within 5 mins i decided to go. on my way i was quite hungry ...so trying to make sure is he at home i sms him to check with how is he feeling den he call say still okie lor. so not to let him know. just a words den we hanged up when i reached $17 cab fare. i sms him saying blah blah my intention just wanna pass him thats all. he call saying why i come all the way... he say he is going to sleep he ask me to go off so i said i leave it at the void deck u just come down n collect cos i know he doesn't want to see me. in the end he came down, and started asking funny things like he used to ask like why u did button up ur polo t....why i met up with BT. and he came close with his face i did not know how to react and the 3rd time he did that i move a little forward he shunned and say we cannot be like this and less than 10 mins he keep asking me to go hm i asked him how to go CCK interchange cos i dun want to take taxi anymore he was pissed and ask me to take taxi he say he will pay. Seriously i did not expected him to do anything cos i know we are through maybe subconciously i still care a alot thats why i did this today. Michelle says now u get it why he wanna sever ties with u cos is real hard to be frenz........I am just contridicting if he treats me real mean i will be super upset if he continue to be nice he will make me even more difficult to leave. i really can't help to feel upset that he do not even want to chat with me more than 5 mins. and this week SEP starts everyone in my class started calling their love ones to update like jumping the slidess but i can't call him anymore. i can't call anyone else. haiz how sad it is to feel like this...... i dunno why . is really IMPOSSIBLE but i still feel alot.