TEARS.

its sunday today. sis just came back today. she try talking to me but i also dunno why i am so moody today.just can't bring myself to be happy. my sis n jx bought some food back and cook . they invited roy,ben,marcus the usual group to came over and have dinner. i do talk to them but today i just dunno why my face is black and i just feel down. my sis she is concern abt me keep asking me wad's wrong with me. i didn't know how to answer. as i also dunno.....just feeling very down. i seriously dunno wad happen to me today. wad am i crying abt today? wad am i upset abt? him? for wad? nth happen between us........ i read through all my posts all are written when i am upset. from last yr till now which moment can i list out that i am happy.............in my memory i am sure there are but is it too little and short that i couldn't even remember.....from last yr till now had been either moodless or upset. that is sad man. argh.......life sucks what is the thing i want at this moment that can make me feel better? i dunno.  just feel like keep on crying but it does not help me to feel better.wad should i do. ? i really sincerely pray to god pls help me. pls take my unhappiness away i dun hope for happiness but at the least dun give me unhappiness.............................