So Much for MY HaPpY EnDinG

ooooo..........almost two weeks has passed.............no changes at all still feeling that sad............last week was such a tedious week all the test and exams.........this week is first aid.. god damn it i was sick since last mon and it got servere on thurs till now still haven't recover . shit man. on thurs i msg him to c whether he has recover fully and told him its my turn so he call and ask me to rest more and drink more water. fri morning he call also but i was having lessons so i did not ans i call him back same thing he ask and he msg me ard noon time this is the first time he text me after i know him for so long.. but fri we quarrelled. i sms him and he call den he say something like u dun need to sleep other pple need to sleep u dun need to work other pple need to work......i feel so hurt.....followed by sat,sun,mon and just now he did called but less than 3 mins of conversations hang up. cannot accept that we used to chat more than 4 hrs now is less than 3 mins....can't help it to feel upset.....can't help to feel this way:

all of the memories so close to me just fade away

all this time you were pretending

so much for my happy ending.

it's nice to know that you were there,

thanks for actin' like you cared

and makin' me feel I was the only one

it's nice to know we had it all

thanks for watchin' as I fall

and lettin' me know we were done

all this time you were pretending so much for my happy ending.............

i really wanna get out of this but why i can't do it ? time? effort? i hate it...........i hate to have something and den lost it i rather dun have it in the first place............