hatred begins....................

wooo......almost a mth neva blog. Busy with training. oh god damn it just view the idiots friendster i guess he had a great time in korea....looking at those pictures he look so happy n enjoyed. and still wear the t shirt i gave and take a picture. shit you man. still can meet me up on tues. i hate him . i need to get him out of my head i need to hate him. he is someone that given me alot of hurt. sickening. i need to promise myself that i should not let him hurt me again. argh. woo.....4 days of off wed go back sure sianz one. training only left exactly a mth more to go. Safety training is over only left foundation n OJT which is so dry n bored n stress. shit man. the trainer of mine is such a bitch. only scoldings n sacastic words. nothing good comes from her mouth. i m sorry this is the only place i can vent everything out. LIFE SUCKS. just had got a feeling that i'm becoming more n more pestimisstic. nth makes me happy. is the main reason because i m single . I dun think i need one but somehow or rather definately its good when u have someone there when u need. maybe everyone ard me has this someone so i dun have thats why i feel this way. oh its 4am 5 plus or 6 need to go pray with mum haha i dun think i need to sleep. just hope down the mths of this year things gets better. i dun ask for much i just wanna be happy. can i?